Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Which part is mine?

I KEEP THINKING TO MYSELF THAT IF I DON'T THINK ABOUT IT, IT WILL GO AWAY! OF COURSE I AM TALKING ABOUT MOM AND HER NASTY LITTLE GUEST THAT IS INVADING HER BODY. I AM TERRIFIED AND I FEEL SO HELPLESS. I AM TRYING TO BE STRONG FOR MY FAMILY, BUT IF I DRIVE TO WORK AND LOSE IT IN THE PARKING LOT ONE MORE TIME I THINK I AM GOING TO SCREAM. I WANT TO LAY ON THE FLOOR AND HAVE A TANTRUM LIKE A TWO YEAR OLD SCREAMING AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS.......IT'S NOT FAIR....IT'S NOT FAIR.



"WHICH PART IS MINE? AND, GOD, WHICH PART IS YOURS?

COULD YOU TELL ME ONE MORE TIME, I'M NEVER QUITE SURE. AND I WONT CROSS THE LINE, LIKE I HAVE BEFORE. BUT IT GETS SO CONFUSING SOMETIMES,SHOULD I DO MORE OR TRUST THE DIVINE?

COULD YOU PLEASE TELL WHICH PART IS MINE AND WHICH PART IS YOURS?"



"IN YOUR HOUR OF DOUBT, LONELINESS AND FEAR, JUST LISTEN TO YOUR HEART AND THIS IS WHAT YOU'LL HEAR."



"YOU'RE NOT ALONE, EVEN THO' RIGHT NOW YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN. YOU ARE LOVED IN WAYS THAT CAN'T BE SHOWN; YOUR NEEDS ARE KNOWN; YOU'RE NOT ALONE.

AND WHEN YOU CRY, YOU'RE JUST LETTING GO A HEARTACHE DEEP INSIDE. SO TOMORROW THERE'LL BE SUNSHINE AND SKY AND LOVE CLOSE BY; YOU'RE NOT ALONE.

AND I KNOW THAT IT'S NOT EASY, BUT I KNOW THAT IT WONT LAST, 'CAUSE ONE WHO LOVES YOU MORE THAN ME...HE'S SENDING BLESSINGS FAST.

YOU'RE NOT ALONE. SAY IT ONE MORE TIME...I'M NOT ALONE...AND EVEN WHEN IT'S HARD TO FIND THE WORDS, YOU'RE ALWAYS HEARD; YOU'RE NOT ALONE.

YOU'RE NOT ALONE. SAY IT ONE MORE TIME.....I'M NOT ALONE.... EVEN WHEN IT'S HARD TO FIND THE WORDS, YOUR PRAYERS ARE ALWAYS HEARD.......YOU'RE NOT ALONE."



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5 comments:

Jill Petersen said...

What do I say to that? You just made me cry again! I think I'll say something generic like say you're prayers and leave it up to him because in reality that's what counts and it's the truth.

I love you and I know it's hard right now. We all need to be tough. Don't feel bad about crying though. Let it out. It's healthy.

Lisa Oslin said...

Laura,
I love you sister and miss you lots. I really wish we were all alot closer right now.. I hope Gaby got his b-day card and had a great b-day.
Did you get your mommys day card? I bet it made you cry. I did!
I love you!!

Jamie said...

I love you, sister! Hang in there...and please come over when ever you need a little extra love! You are welcome anytime! I know it's not as good as visiting mom, but at least we'd be together and I can hug you!!!! See if you can come over on Friday!

Jamie said...

PS: You suck for putting Shiloh on your playlist! I love that song so much, I almost named Addie and/or Heidi Shiloh!!!

Laura said...

Holy cow...how much do I love my sisters....They rock!!!