Happy Birthday Jake! I love you.
Friday, November 10, 2006
November 10th 1992.
How time flies! On this day in history my Jake was born. Maybe I'm just crazy, but I am finding that as time goes by it seems to be getting harder. Last year I did ok with Jakes birthday, but this year I get more emotional when I think about him. I can't believe it's been 14 years. Sometimes it feels like yesterday that I held him in my arms and then had to let him go. I miss him terribly. It's weird to think that he could be reading this as we speak and I would have no clue. Anyway........
Happy Birthday Jake! I love you.
Happy Birthday Jake! I love you.
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honey,
I miss him too. He is my first grandson, Letting him go was the hardest thing I ever had to do. I still can't talk about it with out having my heart hurt. I love you. You need to know you gave him a good life and parents that he is sealed to. Be proud of that, don;t be bitter about not having him. Our Loving Father will even things out. Live the gospel, trust the Lord and the blessings WILL come.
OK, I am not bitter about giving him up. I miss him! I know I did the right thing for him. Nobodies heart hurts more then mine! I am happy that I gave a couple the start to their family, But that doesn't make today any easier. You can be sad and you can miss him, but don't pretend to know how I feel.
I love you Mom and I'm not gonna fight or argue about this. There has been a lot of things said and a lot of things that haven't been said about Jake, Mostly so that feelings don't get hurt so lets just keep it at that.
Whoooaa, ladies! Let's just chill! Laura, I don't think mom meant that you are bitter, she's just warning you not to be. When the life we are living right now gets tough, we tend to think about the past with "rose-colored glasses." I don't know how it would feel to be you, but I think if you really had any idea what a good thing it was that you did for Jake, you wouldn't be so sad. Maybe once you go through the temple you'll realize. Think of all the heartache you are going through with Gabriel---it wouldn't be any different with Jake.It was so good of you to do what you did for him--Heavenly Father AND Jake AND his parents will always be joyful and proud of you for that. I admire you for doing it and for trying to make your ife better since then. I know this will always be a hard day for you and you will miss him forever. I am so excited for you to go to the temple because then, even when that twinge of sadness comes, it will be followed by peace, knowing we'll all be together, in the same place with the same blessings, no matter which family we grew up in on earth.
Love you sis! Do you still want to come do townails on Tuesday the 21st? You could come stay over if you want--what ever works for you guys! XOXOX You're in my prayers today...
I LOVE YOU AND BIG BIG HUUUGGGSS TO YOU. i WISH I WAS THERE TO GIVE YOU A BIG HUG LOVE YOU SO MUCH. :)
Maybe I don't use the right words when I try to say what I feel. Let me try again!!! I miss him, Just like I miss
G-maree or G-pa Dynamite. I KNOW I did the right thing for him and me. I wouldn't change a thing. He is right where he was meant to be. I am not bitter and I'm not going to be.
A simple "Laura, we miss him too and we love you" would have been enough.
Laura, I am just responding to some things you have said in person (like when mom told you "All you had to do was say the word..."--that shouldn't have upset you as much because you know you did the right thing--you just always SEEM bitter, I guess, but I am glad you're not. Sorry). But you're right...this is a day that will always remind you of him. We love you and miss him, too.
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