Have you ever been awake late at night and get this huge rush of emotions? I do every couple of nights. I try to help everyone with their problems and I lose myself in the process. There are a few major things going on in my family right now and I feel totally lost. I love my family more then anything and I really try to understand their views on certain subjects, but there are times when I just can't. Does that make me a bad person? I am so far away from the rest of my siblings that I don't even feel connected to them anymore. My oldest sister gave me some good advice...advice that our wonderful grandfather gave to her. She said that the only things that matter are what happen inside your home. She's so right. I have my cute boys and my wonderful husband to think about. Why waste my time on things I can't change or people I can't help. That doesn't make me a bad person, It just makes me a better mom and wife. I will always be here for my family....If and when they need me, but as for sticking my nose in their business....Nope, isn't gonna happen!
I can't help you fix yourself, But at least I can say I tried. I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life.............Go fix yourself!!!
"Scars" By Papa Roach!
3 comments:
Yay! I am so proud of you , Lulu! It never stops hurting when you see people you love get hurt or make poor choices, but at some point you realize that you can only influence adn "fix" your own life or the lives of your immediate family (like Covey's circles of concern vs. influence). Think about it--you mean the world to D, G, & J, but to everyone else now your are "extended family." It seems obviousl to pour your energy into the areas where you have the most influence. Sorry if I came off harsh in our chats--I just didn't want you to worry about things you can't change. Love you!!
James, You were far from harsh! I needed to hear what you said and I thank you. My husband and my boys are my responsibility. I have my own problems to deal with and work through. Why even waste my time when they are just gonna do what they want anyway! makes no sense!
Laura--I really love the new blog template, but hate the blog spam (above)--delete it, quick! Comment spam is of the devil!
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